Walking the Wood of Words

 

My sense of truest self

Comes in wandering

These winding paths  now and then .

Some spots dim in places

Others ,  brightness floods .

There are words there ,

They sway in the breeze.

Some grow best in tender shadow,

While  others  stretch bursting for the sun.

These are my favourite walks

I wind my way through ,

Without Hurry  clinging to my back

Without Ought and Should’s

Arms hanging off of my neck .

I wander my way .

There are times these words call out to me .

They asked me to take them

Tenderly to my heart

And pin them there

So that I may  grow,

And so might they .

For we were meant for each other

And known from before .

Now and then I wander there,

The paths of the forest of words .

 

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Checkpoint 300

He stood beside me , to my right.
Closer than I am used to , for a man I do not know.
I don’t know his name , or how many years he had lived ,
But I suspect his face lied about his age
he was probably younger than I thought.
In his right hand was a blue plastic shopping bag filled with pita , his lunch for that day.
We shuffled forward a few steps,
but never really moved.
In his left hand he held a cigarette,
I looked at it
Knowing it was much more than a habit.
It was the trip to the sea he , his wife and children will never make.
It was the extra money he never has,
it was the thought of his children’s success and future
It was gathering with brothers and sisters so long apart
This cigarette was a relief .
Soothing relaxation for nerves always tried.
Physically , emotionally spiritually.
I looked at his lined brown face and whispered a prayer.
He lifted his cigarette to his lips and drew in his breath,
He tilted his head and with his eyes slightly closed he breathed out the white smoke that had filled his lungs.
It danced over his lips in a stream of curls , floating up and away
It was like he was breathing out a wish
And then it was gone .
I swallowed hard and turned my head and closed my eyes to contain my emotions.
We shuffled forward a few steps
but never really moved.

For Yoll

You know when I met you for the first time,
It was like I knew you.
Not in that cliche way ,
But in the way of a distant memory I had of you.
But how could that be?
We had never met…had we?
You wandered your way to me.
And I’m so glad you did
When I buried my face in your fur it smelled and felt like comfort
The kind of smell like a warm summer breeze on a lazy day.
And I knew you were in my heart from years past.
When I would run my hands , softly over your handsome face
And you would lift you half closed eyes up to mine as your ears went soft and lay down
I knew we were a pair.
Two of a kind

When I would hear the heavy drum of your great paws beating across the ground
Coming toward me , with that grin on you face.
My heart would swell so my chest could barely contain it.
You were a memory fulfilled
Joy! Love!
A gift, a breath of life to me

How can it be that now you are a memory ..
How can that be?
And now my chest feels empty , sore and strangled
My throat is dry and tight for missing you.
I still love you , you know.
In a way most people never understand
I still love you , you know
In a way most people never know.

My beautiful boy
I tuck you back into my heart,
That memory of our days.
I hold it there for safe keeping
I will pull it out again when I bury my face in your fur on the Rainbow bridge
Wait for me there.

2:00 am

I opened my window at 2:00 a m
I needed refreshment ,
The air was so crisp , it stood on end
Without a drop to offer .
No vibration..
Nothing moved
Then then came the call of the night watchman
Asking who? who?
His call half warning, half lonesome song.
Impressive and full of authority like the voice of your father
The sentry called
So recognizable .
A voice you give attention to willingly
The brittle cold… silence again
I strain to hear the beauty of the sentinel inquiry again…

Then the loud abrasive mechanical bull
Truly cold
Scraping his metal chin across rock asphalt dropping its mess of sand and salt behind him.
Shamelessly blinking blue and red demanding attention
irritating
The rattle clatter of this one ..noisy.
I closed my window ,
And return to suffocation.

The Gift Of The Ancient

I have these dear friends …
They are great ,… tall …and handsomely green.
They have branches for arms that wave and call to me..
Looking for my attention
Trying to remind me of some ancient secret…
Something they have not forgotten …
Perhaps because they are so rooted..
Their leaves dance, …..twirling and twisting ..
They call out singularly and collectively ..
Remember?
..they say.
Remember…?
And I search the light that shimmers through the leaves, because of their jig..
I know there is something I have forgotten
It sits in the far corner of my mind
..slightly obscured , yet present…

I feel like I may re-collect this distant thought,
If I could cease hearing the manufactured…
Then perhaps , I could hold this distant thought in my hands…
If I could hear the real, true , changeless , ancient .

I turn my mind and eye and ear again to my tall and verdant friend…
What is it you say?
You who’s arms stretch and reach for the heavens, like grasping
What is the ancient thing I have forgotten under layers of life and busyness ?

Shimmering light…
Waving arms…
Dancing leaves…

And then the wind whispers…so loudly it is deafening..

Soul , spirit , ..hear this
From the earths foundations..the Father has loved you!
Before the time was measured by day or night..
The Son has longed for you!
When there was only The Three…your days were known..

This is the gift of the ancient things ..
Do you recall?

I Heard You

I heard you when you said , if I remained silent the rocks would cry out.
I knew you always spoke the truth…
But as you hung there ,I searched your face to find you..
I couldn’t
I couldn’t see you..
your beautiful eyes..
They always told me you loved me
Even when you were correcting me

But as you hung there ,
I couldn’t see you..
I saw blood – so much- wet, and dried , and dirt and matted hair ,hanging skin..
And those beautiful eyes so brown and deep …now purple and swollen
Hidden from me.

And I remembered you said ,if I kept silent the rocks would cry out.
But as you hung there ..
My throat was strangled with sobs..
And my tongue a helpless weak lump..
I had no words…

The rocks… .?
Who knew were so soft?
They saw you too, along with all of your creation..
The rocks saw you
They saw you triumphing when I did not
They saw you faithful , trusting and believing
And they saw me
silent- empty of words
Unable to comprehend
What could they do but quake their praise…
My silence required it
If any moment was ripe with glory and adoration , it was this moment.
I remained silent..no accolade fell from my lips..my thoughts were of how I would live apart from you, how your beauty could be so marred..
I couldn’t see you, my belief was emptied

The rocks knew your faith

I heard you when you said “faith could move mountains…”
I wondered if I would ever have that measure of faith
I just never thought I would see it …
I don’t have faith to move mountains..
But your faith in Father does

That day you hung there
I could not see you even though you were there
Right in front of me…

And then the earth shook and the mountains moved by your faith and the rocks cried out….
I see you now…
I see you now.

Paperless book

Sometimes ,
I feel like a paperless book.
You might anticipate by the cover, just what could be inside .
You may even be confident you know what is inside.

But some times I feel like a paperless book
Depleted
Hollow

Contrary to the promises of the wrapping and spine
The inside of the volume lacks substance of any sort.

What is the meaning of being a book
With out leaf
What then is the plot
Without direction and story ..?
Come Great Scribe
Write on me again.
Let my heart be your pages.

Come Matchless Poet
Compose words of beauty and life
Where there seems so much grey void
So much nothingness and lethargy.

Then my heart will be Your volume.
Then the offer of this hopeful cover be sincere and genuine
Fill these pageless places with You, Your words and works of life.

Let this paperless story be Yours.